Well… LOL It’s not all butterflies and rainbows after all. I’m ONE week into puree for the record. I honestly thought I’d rock this stage because I really don’t mind mushy things. When I picture chicken/tuna/crab salad, I get nauseous now, and I’ve only had them each maybe once or twice. I think my biggest problem is, I was doing too many COLD “meals” and pureed them to absolute mush. I’ll be honest, I’ve recently stopped using the blender so much and started to trust myself to chew the food down to mush, and let me tell you, it’s been so much nicer. It was actually pretty scary at first… you just don’t know what your new baby tummy will allow or simply freak out about. (If you try this, please stay mindful and chew ALL the way through. I’m not a doctor and don’t advise anything other than to follow the plan given to you by your providers.)
For some reason I don’t really get “hungry,” I’m sure I’m not the only one. I will say though, that I’ve felt cramping in my stomach, and I realized that this was my body’s way of telling me it was time to eat. My birthday was last Friday and it was interesting… all the things I would normally do, I couldn’t. Everyone asked me what I did so I told them I did XYZ and ended the day with a nice dinner lol… and hey, it wasn’t a complete lie! I got mashed potatoes and gravy from KFC! Sure I only ate maybe 5-7 baby bites, but it was fantastic!
Our state fair is going on right now and I absolutely LOVE going. There are SO many foods I would love to try. I feel a little FOMO and disappointment because I know I probably shouldn’t go. Not only is there temptation all around, but you just can’t predict how certain things are going to make you feel and I would certainly hate to be in public if my stomach wasn’t agreeing with something. I would probably panic.
Full disclosure, there are definitely times that I wonder if I made the right choice. There are times I get down on myself and feel a little regret. Of course it passes as I remind myself why I did this in the first place. I guess the scary part for me is the thought that I might not ever eat the same again. It might be unrealistic, but I’ve been an overthinker my entire life. I just look forward to the day where I can eat more freely, not worry if I’ll feel shortness of breath or bubbles coming up my throat after a meal. Not worry about having to make my meal last a full 30 minutes. Not worry about getting 64 ounces of fluids in each day – by SIPPING. I just look forward to the future when all of this will be worth it.
This whole process might be the hardest thing I’ve ever done… so for the people who say this is was the easy way out – kindly, GFY 🙂
As always, if you have ANY questions at all or simply need support, I’m here for it all <3
P.S. Can you guess what that yummy green mush is?